I am no longer going to live my life medicated.

A lot of you know, a lot of you don't.

I have bipolar disorder, type 1, rapid cycling.

This means that I not only go into hypo-manic phases, I become manic and it can escalate to psychosis, and can get out of that and into a low within a few seconds...minutes...days...my highs and lows don't usually last more than a few days.


At any rate, I'm tired of living my life medicated. I'm tired of feeling dead inside. I'm tired of having to go to my mom's house every night to take my pills, because they don't trust me to take them on my own...they have a right to feel that way. I've stopped my pills before, without their knowledge...but this time, I've told them.

I'm an adult, I have the right to make this choice.

There may be times, now, where I'll need help. I have plans in place to help get through a hypo-manic episode, such as crafts, things to keep me busy. People to contact if I'm depressed.


So.

Here is what I need.

I need those of you that actually care to let me know now.

Because they may be a time where I really need someone to help me through my lows, and stay awake with me through my highs.

I need a friend that cares, can get it, all of it, and a friend that can live with, if not embrace my choice to go med-free.